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hey... -.- preal sorry i couldnt talk 2 u yesterday but i kinda broke down and i wanted 2 take shower early. so todays bin a gud day i gues, cuz ^^ shawn said hi to me and so did kaikaika. and avery told me to vote isaac 4 treasurer. `.` evil but thats ok. and brenn had to tell me something for my mom. and lowen sits by me in math and at my table at lunch, and the math teacher mrs. eldredge had bin sittin at our table. so he said that hii (a ate gater at r table) was askin him 'u think she will sit by us the ho week." and he sed i hope not, and turned around and she was right there. i guess she gave him a bad look. so its pretty funny when we have math and stuff cuz she doesnt really like him or so he thinks. well i dont like anybody, haey, but i was thinking that he may be a possibility. but then, i was walking our run with ppl named rhianne and tiff (aquino o.O) and they new so much!! they sed shawn asking pualei out was just a joke, but she thot he was freal. then he said they cant, so she was super sad and almost wanted 2 kill herself. like reeeely close .. like coff X'( but then anyway he is a reallyyyyyyy ugly guy (coff, member the guy hyrum was talkin 2 the ho time at the track meet? hes the shawn guy ... :S) and i dont c how ppl like him. and some guy named matt i think and walter and kama and everybodys soooooo ugly!!!!! but anyways. so rhianne guys were talkin and they also said somethin about chaunsey (she LOOKS like megan!!!) marrying lowen so that made me sad.. not actually, i was just rily mad at him. i cant!! imagine in 4 years i can get marryd. and in 2 years i can drive... only old old people do that!!!!!!!! AHHH -.-... :( but i no that i skipped most of my life. i skipped up until now. i have memories, but theyre fake. i am me at the moment, and at the next ill be somebody else. with their all memories they can member. ho i have 2 tests tomaro...i dont wanna say what made me so sad. thats really real for everyone. cant face it, cuz i no that if i do ill be wasting my fun time that im worryd about losing. DUH! nevermind. i just feel my school is deeply giving me the hugest disadvantages. i have no higher classes to take for a more challenge, no clubs to join for college record, NOBODY to look up to not even just one grade. no rules we can break and get away with, no cool dress code like baldwin or maui high thats the BEST. no BAND!!!! my favoritist subject in the world, then math. but i realized last night that i like studying kinda. i think more than a lot of people, at least some. i really like learning things. and if i had the will, then id be reading the big books every day thats tomorrows or the next months or weeks assignment. but im way too lazy. even to make sure i have complete understnading of everything. even when i like biology cuz i kno this is my last chance at learning the subject that i might become a scientist on. im too lazy. i dont wanna say naymore cuz this takes too long and stuff. the only thing i think doesnt is talking!!


posted by aisha at 5:20 PM